Monday 16 March

The fast track diagnosis includes a meeting with a specialized onco-gyneacologist, another one with an anesthesiologist, heart film, CT scan and lung x-ray. Because Fred needs the car to take Saman to swimming lessons, I travel by public transport (bicycle, train1, train2, metro). The trains are crowded and in Amsterdam I jumped on the wrong metro train. Somehow I manage to run back from the first stop and get the right metro on time. The gyneacologist puts the pap smear results in perspective and uses wording like 'if indeed cancer in confirmed', which allows me to distance myself a bit from the worse case scenario. I don't miss having a companion to 'do the track' with me, which was strongly recommended by the hospital. Instead I review a paper (pretending I am not ill and this is just a passing phase in my life as a professional scientist) and listen to my favourite i-pod songs. A bit of clever rescheduling helps me to be done around 12:30 instead of needing the fullday.